What I Want To Say To You (너에게 하고 싶은 얘기), I Am Always Alone (난 항상 혼자 있어요)

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What I Wan To Say To You (너에게 하고 싶은 얘기) and I Am Alway Alone (난 항상 혼자 있어요) are from the folk songstress Jang Pil Soon’s (장필순, 1963-) seventh album, Soony Seven, which was released in 2013. An old timer in the folk scene and active since the 1980s, Jang has been performing songs about love, friendship, and life ever since. Her excellent seventh album is of the soul searching kind, with deeper, more mature and relevant lyrics, a high point of her decades of musicianship.

너에게 하고 싶은 얘기


가버린 날의 그림 속엔 초라한 너의 모습
그 눈빛엔 내일에 대한 기대는 없었어
내일은 너도 모른다며 너를 자꾸 내몰았고
헝클어진 밤거리만이 너의 전부였지
슬프고 우울한 너의 모습이 보여
부정할 수 있는 방법은 없어 보여

먼 곳에서 돌아온 너 잔잔해진 가슴엔
젊음보다 열정보다 빛나는 꿈을 채워
흔들리던 너의 어제를 부끄러워 하진 마
그대로의 너의 모습을 다시 사랑할 순 없는지
너의 침묵 속엔 수없이 많은 얘기
너의 눈빛 속엔 흔들리는 별 하나

이 세상의 그 누구보다 아름다운 너
이 세상의 그 누구보다 사랑스러운 너

나는 네가 가만히 기대 울 수 있는 어깨야
의지할 곳 없을 때마다 다시 찾았던 친구잖아
머나먼 밤길을 힘겹게 돌아온 너
난 그저 말없이 두 손을 잡아줄 뿐

이 세상의 그 누구보다 아름다운 너
이 세상의 그 누구보다 사랑스러운 너

What I Want To Say To You


You figured like a shabby nobody in the old picture
With no rosy expectations for tomorrow in your eyes
Tomorrow driving you away with all its uncertainties
The chaotic night streets were all there was for you
I see the sad and dejected figure of you
I cannot deny it, no matter how I may try

Take your heart quieted down after a long journey
Fill it with a dream brighter than any youthful fervor
And don't be ashamed of your once shaky yesterday
So you can love yourself again just the way you are
So many stories lurk within your silence
A lone trembling star shining in your eyes

You who are more beautiful than anyone in the world
You who are more lovable than anyone in the world

I am the shoulders you can quietly lean on and cry
One you fell back on when you had nobody to turn to
For you who just came a long way through the dark
I will just hold your hands in mine without a word

You who are more beautiful than anyone in the world
You who are more lovable than anyone in the world

난 항상 혼자 있어요


난 항상 혼자 있어요
슬픔의 밤은 늘 그래요
여기저기 뒹구는 우울한 물음들
떨리듯 춤추는 별이
쏟아져내리는 꿈이
너무나 아쉬워
가슴에 묻은 기억
거짓말 같은 이 침묵이
나는 너무 밉지만
이 모든 상처의 시간이 밉지만
허무히 빨리 흐르겠죠
인생이란 외로움
다 사라져버리겠죠
이 슬픔은 모두 잊혀지겠죠

난 항상 혼자 있어요
모든 걸 잃은 막연함이
내 안을 다시 볼 수 없게 하네요
가슴을 울렸던 얘기
그들과 나눴던 웃음
너무나 아쉬워
나는 또 혼자 되어
그늘진 마음은 슬퍼져
나는 너무 밉지만
이 모든 상처의 시간이 밉지만
허무히 빨리 흐르겠죠
인생이란 외로움
다 사라져버리겠죠
이 슬픔은 모두
이 슬픔은 모두 잊혀지겠죠

I Am Always Alone


I am always alone
As I usually am on a sad night
Glum questions thrown about everywhere
Stars dancing like trembling
Wasted dreams falling down
They sadden me so much
Memories buried in my heart
This silence that defies belief
As much as I resent it all
As much as I resent these hours of hurt
I know it will quickly fleet by
This loneliness called life
It will all disappear, won't it
All this sadness will be forgotten

I am always alone
A vagueness from losing it all
Makes me unable to peer in myself again
Stories that resonated in me
Laughter I shared with them
I miss them all so much
I get to be alone yet again
My shadowed heart saddening
As much as I resent it all
As much as I resent these hours of hurt
I know it will quickly fleet by
This loneliness called life
It will all disappear, won't it
And all this sadness
All this sadness will be forgotten


Jan Pil Soon 1

Jang started her music life in earnest forming a duo with her school mate in the 80s. After her partner quit to pursue her studies, she went solo in 1989 releasing her first album. She had a modest hit with Before I realized (어느새), and followed on with more albums, some of which are now ranked among the all time 100 best albums in some respected surveys. Jang’s music is poetic folk ballad, somewhat in line with Jo Dong Jin, with whom she had close association and even collaborations through the years. Her latest album appears to be yet another height of her career, filled with songs featuring deep reaching lyrics and solid music to go with them.

What I Want To Say To You, which is of her own writing, is words of love and moral support for a friend who has lost his or her way. Starting low key and with no flamboyant vocals or instrumental arrangements, it says its message through gently repeating rhythm and softly sung melody of steady assurance that leads to an exhilarated crescendos toward the end. The song as well as the whole album is the kind of music you would relax listening to at the end of a particularly tiring day.

Jang Pil Soon 2

I Am Always Alone is a sad, whispery ballad confessing to the loneliness and emptiness deep in the narrator’s heart. It sinks down to the remotest corners of a sad mind as it recites the broken dreams and the ensuing sadness, lost friends, solitude and worthlessness of life. You get the impression that the narrator is relating her feelings of the most private nature while she is looking back and taking stock of her life so far, telling you that she cannot seem to find even one thing that gives her a reason for joy. You are stunned and don’t know what to say, awed by the frank and cogent sorrowfulness of it. The song ends with This loneliness called life, it will all disappear, won’t it. And all this sadness will be forgotten. You rarely hear such an expression of abject despair in a song.

Like her quiet and unassuming songs, Jang Pil Soon is said to be leading a quiet life living on the Jeju island in the southern tip of Korea. She called it a slow life in a newspaper interview, befriending nature and animal friends. I hope there will be another Jang Pil Soon album as good or even better than Soony Seven.

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